A long time ago I used to blog...

WOW! It has really been a long time since I last looked at my blog. And boy have things changed since then. I lost my job and Michael Jackson died. Life shattering events as you might imagine. It truly has been a tough few months. I LOVED MY JOB! But the economy ran amuck and it crashed into the non-profit where I worked. I went in on a Thursday and was told that the next day would be my last. It was devastating! Even the director who gave me the news cried when she told me. It has been a very difficult time emotionally and spiritually. I have spent a lot of time confused about what God is doing and what all this means for me and my family. What are the lessons I am supposed to learn? For a while I thought the answer to those questions were complicated. But now I think I am getting it.

When life tosses us around we WANT the answers to be earth shattering and profound and they are. They are profoundly simple. They are found in the Bible verses that every child is taught in Sunday School. Verses like, "What time I am afraid I will trust in thee" (Ps. 56:3) or "Be anxious for nothing.." (Phil. 4:6) and "Cast all you cares on Him because He cares for you", (I Peter 5:7).

The older I get the bigger worrier I become. I think it is because as we age we understand just how scary life can be and we file all that fear away in our brains so that we can pull it out in the panic of our lives. But there is another file that we should keep at the ready and that is the file of God's protection and provision over us! For all of my 45 years he has NEVER left me to fend for myself or make my own way. He has always provided, always cheered me on and always blessed my life. My temporary circumstances do not scare Him in the least nor do they catch Him by surprise. He will always prove Himself to be faithful in loving and caring for me.

I love hymns. These words are my prayer today and everyday:

"Tis so sweet, to trust in Jesus,

just to take Him at His word.

Just to rest upon HIs promise,

Just to know, "Thus saith the Lord"

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!

How I've proved Him o're and o're!

Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!

O for grace to trust Him More!"